alloutfallout69

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 21:22:01 GMT

If I find out who is saying shit about me and my past I will kill them.

Shut the fuck up.

And watch your motherfucking back.

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 22:31:54 GMT

I'm done with it. I have no respect for her. No shred is left. I refuse to be drawn back into that friendship, no matter the history. With her help I drank, and ruined a good relationship. With her help I nearly killed another relationship, though that one I was lucky enough to save. (I love you Colin.)

All your "friends" don't care about you. If they did they wouldn't let you do the things you do. You're as bad as my father, and I'm done with dealing with another addict. I'm done with dealing with such an extreme hypocrite. "He cheated and broke my heart. He told me and we broke up." You didn't cheat on him numerous times? If he had known, don't you think it would have hurt him too? At least he had the decency to tell you. Something you don't have. Whatever. Drink and fuck yourself to death. But don't even begin to pass judgement on me. You have no fucking right.

Stop saying shit to people, and maybe people will stop saying shit about you.

What goes around comes around bitch.

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 23:34:36 GMT

So I'm incredibly bored. A bit sad. I'm all alone in my house. All night. Fucking wonderfull. No sarcasm intended. Um. Yeah.

Colin's in NY. I probably won't be able to hear from him till he gets back. Uh.. Yeah. He gets back Tuesday... =/

So. I'm stuck with basically no life till then. Causeee I have no life.

So I was researching about clovess... and some say that they're actually worse for you cause its more "natural" tobacco, and that contains more tar and nicotine. Greattt.

Another love of mine is apparently bad for me. =[

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 13:09:35 GMT

So I love how I came home at like 1230 last night and nobody was home. All the lights were off, things were out, and there was no note. No message on the machine. So after freaking out, I figure the only place my mom would be was at her friend Eydie's house. I call there, and guess who picks up? My mother. Wasted. And she yells at me for yelling at her. Which makes no fucking sense. But then I sit on the phone with Colin, and just fucking screamed. Yeah. No fun.

I get into bed at like. 115. Fall asleep. Colin calls me again, but I'm so tired I have no idea what he's saying. Then I think my mom came home. With Steve I think. So I had to get off the phone. And then I fell asleep.

I get up this morning and guess who's gone again?

My mother. No note again. And my cousin and aunt are supposed to be here at like. 1030.

My mother needs to clean up her motherfucking act. I never pulled this shit when I went out and drank. She's supposed to be responsible. Not me.

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 02:50:38 GMT

So you wanna know how bad my day was today?

I had a cat thrown at my face.

End of story.

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 04:23:32 GMT

Tonight was ~~one of~~ the worst night I've had in a long time.

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 04:41:48 GMT

A silly survey I took. Because I'm wide awake with nothing to do.

80 Questions I Guarantee You've Never Answered

Do you watch the Gilmore Girls?
No.

Have you ever enjoyed listening to Jack Johnson?
No.

Have you ever seen or enjoyed watching the O.C.?
Yes.

Do you have one or more Britney Spears CDs?
No.

Which radio stations are your favorites?
92.1, 107.1, 101.7

Are you a Lost fanatic?
No. I've never even watched it.

[[Be honest]]

Do you have a song by Ozzy Osbourne in your library?
No.

Queen?
Yes.

Alanis Morissette?
Yes.

Do you watch Family Guy regularly?
No.

King of the Hill?
No.

[[Admit it]]

Do you read trashy romance novels often?
Yes.

Do you really work out every day?
No.

Have you ever eaten an entire pint, or more, ice cream by yourself?
No.

Have you ever eaten nothing but junk food for a week straight?
Yes.

Do you ever forget to give a Christmas/birthday present?
Yes.

Do you sing obnoxiously in the car when you're driving alone?
I don't drive yet. But I'll sing obnoxiously with people in the car too.

Do you sing obnoxiously in the shower when no one's home?
Yes.

Have you ever watched a little kid's show when you were over 12?
Yes.

Have you ever looked forward to going to school?
Yes.

[[The Necessary Love Questions That Aren't So Necessary]]

Have you ever pretended your crush was with you when they weren't?
Yes.

Did you draw pictures for your first crush back in elementary school?
No.

Have you ever liked a girl/boy but didnt ask her/him out because you were afraid?
Yes.

Have you ever written a poem/story about your love life?
Yes.

Have you ever spent over an hour thinking about nothing but your crush?
Yes.

Have you ever liked someone solely for their appearance?
Yes.

[[The Questions You Love: Completely and Utterly Pointless Ones]]

Do you eat all the servings in the food groups on a daily basis?
No.

Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
No.

Have you ever been to South America or Africa?
No.

Do you know how to knit?
No.

Do you have a cell phone or iPod with a patterned cover?
No cell phone or iPod, so no cover.

Have you ever written love song lyrics yourself and put them in your profile?
No.

Do you keep a diary or journal online?
Yes.

When you open your closet, what is the dominant color of your closet?
Black.

[[Truly Unusual This or That Questions]]

Baskin Robbins or Coldstone?
Baskin Robbins.

America or Canada?
I've never been to Canada so... America.

Physics or chemistry?
I haven't studied either. Probably chemistry.

Earphones or headphones?
Earphones.

Pink or teal?
Teal.

Earrings or a ring?
Ring.

Commitment or casual dating?
Commitment.

Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings?
Harry Potter.

Fly or road trip?
Fly.

Starbucks or Caribou?
Starbucks.

[[Another Wave of Random Questions]]

What is your favorite Disney movie?
Aladin, Cinderella, or The Little Mermaid.

How much jewelry do you own?
Quite a bit. Most of it's worthless.

Have you ever bought clothing at sears?
Yes.

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 17:40:43 GMT

So... I haven't updated in awhile. Uh. To catch everyone (as the like 3 people who read this) Amber and I are not fighting anymore. She's seems to be accepting/dealing with the fact that Colin and I are dating, and its not going to change. She hasn't been bothering me about it anyways.

Uh.. Not much has really been going on. I went up to the lake Sunday.. that was pretty shitty. Um.. I talked to Bailey a couple times. I did nothing... Yeah... It's been pretty boring.

Oh but the strorms. Yeah. That was great. Our skylight broke, my moms gardens were trashed, a tree fell down, the power was out for 4 hours, and our water was gone for 5-6. Not too much damage, but the whole front of our house is dented. It's kinda funny. Amber's house is much worse. It completely flooded the inside. Almost everything's ruined. And their insurance doesn't cover it.

I was over there helping her clean and switch the computers and stuff yesterday. And then I walked all the way home, and went out with Colin and this Josh kid. I really did not have a good time, until Colin and I went back to his house. Uh.. I can't say I like that Josh kid at all. He was like hitting on me. Figuritively and literally. But., I kicked him as hard as I could in his chest/shoulder. : ) It made life good.

So tonight I'll be spending the night at Amber's and we're watching the baby. So that's great. I love that kid. He's so fucking adorable. Even though he stole my birthday.

Haha.

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 02:13:56 GMT

Today fucking sucked. I had such a fucking bad day. I got like 3 hours of sleep cause Amber and I stayed up till like 4 and she had to get up wicked early for summer school. And we were supposed to go to the beach with Ben, Brendan, Emilie, Andrew, all of them, but we both were sick, so we didn't bother going. So Amber, Pat and I all went back to Amber's and just kinda hung out. Except Amber and Pat were like fooling around so much, and I was just like ew. Then Tiffany came with the baby and all sorts of bad shit happened with Colin and yeah. It fucking sucked. So I got in the biggest fight with Amber and I just walked out. Like a 2 mile walk home. And then I walked another like mile and a half so I could go see Colin for a bit. And.. I don't know.. that wasn't that great either... : /

Today just fucking is wicked shitty.

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 19:21:41 GMT

The Cranberries-Linger Lyrics

If you, if you could return
Don’t let it burn, don’t let it fade
I’m sure I’m not being rude
But it’s just your attitude
It’s tearing me apart
It’s ruining everything
And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn’t be so confused
And I wouldn’t feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

And I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

I loveee The Cranberries. They kinda take me wayy back when I half lived with my dad on the beach, and everything was good. Hah. Well. At least he was there at some point.

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 02:49:31 GMT

Fucking bitch. She had no fucking reason to be so mean.

None.

"Gag. I hate it so much. It's lame. It's fucking gay."

I've never been anything but a fucking support system for this girl. She could be fucking DEAD IF I HADN"T FUCKING BEEN THERE TO TAKE THE MOTHERFUCKING BOTTLE FROM HER. TO KEEP HER FUCKING AWAKE, CONSCIOUS, ALIVE.

I was there every single time she needed me. Every fucking time.

I don't fucking know what her problem has been lately. But she needs to get the fuck over herself. She's not fucking god and she never will be.

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 15:47:13 GMT

Alright. So I'm getting my hair done today and I am soooooo nervous.

Bleach.

Cut.

Color.

Then I get to do the strange color I wish.

It's either going to be the normal green or red.

Almost that color red to be exact.

I'm leaning towards the red but I am sooo nervous.

Any thoughts?

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 01:42:06 GMT

So this kinda really sucks. And it fucking hurt...

Got in a huge fight with Colin. Maybe I shouldn't have said what I said.

I don't know.

Hopefully we'll find out.

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 00:56:04 GMT

So... I'm kinda having a shitty day. Uh.. well. I didn't sleep well. I got up too early. I had to take care of my next door neighbor's kids and dogs, because the dogs started fighting, and one got bit and was bleeding everywhere. It was great. So. Yeah.

Other than that, I'm just not a happy camper. I never am to be totally honest, but today it's pretty bad.

Certain things are soo difficult to not do when I'm like this.

Ehh well. We won't get into why I am like this at the moment.

No need to upset anyone.